C'mon now ... listen to my band ... do it ...

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for some reason i feel it's very important to write this down quick ...

everything is gonna be o.k, seriously ... everything will be fine ...

i just got tired of seeing the old journal entry ...

have started doing coloured pics (which i've wanted to do for ages but never really got it right) - after watching tutorials by
i've been practicing a bit (doing a massive one that'll probably never be finished inbetween other stuff) ... but the point of the journal being the promise that i will get off my lazy ass at some point and scan some of my own drawings rather than colouring other people's stuff (which i do enjoy... colaboration is good fun, but i will ultimately be doing my own thing mostly).

thanks to and for letting me use some of their sketches.

so i just finished watching requiem for a dream for the first time and i now have a new favourite movie...

it was without a doubt the most amazing movie i've seen, i dont care if its one of those things that everyones seen and gotten over by now i have NEVER been more effected by a film... i was even more deeply effected by how i could utterly and truly relate to certain parts and how deeply i empathised with the characters, it was such an emotional barrage and the end was almost more than i could take.

"marianne..."
"she'll come..."
"no she won't..."

that fuckin broke me... i honestly dont believe i'll ever watch a film that'll have a more profound impact on me... and it won't be for lack of searching. if someone can recommend a movie that tops that i dont know what i'll do...

that ending with the music swelling and that poor, poor desperate old woman hallucinating that she was on t.v with her son and everything was ok... those 2 friends of hers crying their eyes out becuase they did care...

oh christ...

tommorow morning i'm gonna tell my mom i love her.

i can't get over it... there's a life before and after watching requiem for a dream i swear to god...